WORRY

Thanks to my former husband for this one.  It's so true...our son is going sky diving this coming Saturday for his 34th birthday.  I will worry.....

Is there a magic cutoff period  when
offspring become accountable for their own
actions? Is there a  wonderful moment when
parents can become detached spectators in
the  lives of their children and shrug, "It's
their life," and feel nothing?

When I was in my twenties, I stood in a hospital
corridor waiting  for doctors to put a few
stitches in my son's head. I asked, "When do
you stop worrying?" The nurse said,
"When they get out of the accident  stage." My
mother just smiled faintly and said nothing.

When I was  in my thirties, I sat on a little
chair in a classroom and heard how one of  my
children talked incessantly, disrupted the class,
and was headed for  a career making
license plates. As if to read my mind, a teacher
said,  "Don't worry, they all go through
this stage and then you can sit back,  relax and
enjoy them." My mother just smiled
faintly and said nothing.

When I was in my forties, I spent a lifetime
waiting for the phone  to ring, the cars to come
home, the front door to open. A friend said,
"They're trying to find themselves. Don't
worry, in a few years, you can  stop worrying.
They'll be adults." My mother just smiled
faintly and  said nothing.

By the time I was 50, I was sick & tired of being
vulnerable. I was still worrying over my
children, but there was a new  wrinkle there
was nothing I could do about it. My
mother just smiled  faintly and said nothing. I
continued to anguish over their failures, be
tormented by their frustrations and absorbed in
their disappointments.

My friends said that when my kids got married I
could stop worrying  and lead my own
life. I wanted to believe that, but I was
haunted by my  mother's warm smile and her
occasional, "You look pale. Are you all right?
Call me the minute you get home. Are
you depressed about something?"

Can it be that parents are sentenced to a
lifetime of worry? Is concern for one another
handed down like a torch to blaze the trail of
human frailties and the fears of the
unknown? Is concern a curse or is  it a virtue
that elevates us to the highest form of life?

One of my  children became quite irritable
recently, saying to me, "Where were you?  I've
been calling for 3 days, and no one answered.
I was worried." I  smiled a warm smile.
The torch has been passed.